Was it only yesterday?
That you held my hands
And walked the yards.
The day reclining to rest
As the Sun took shade for the night.
My eyes attentive, inert to your words.
My mind fixed at some distance
Counting present worries
And those yet to come.
Some yours. Some mine.
And the road ribboned forward
Only to bend at curbs
While the air mixed hues and sounds
Of the approaching evening.
You loved the sunset.
And I loved you.
You were always this reckless.
Never giving a silent thought before the leap
Splashing muddy waters onto your silk churidaar,
Spoiling my starched dove-white shirt.
And then having only a pleading smile
Half impish, half sincere
And full of unrepentant joy,
That made me smile. Annoyed.
But, you never noticed.
You kept pace with the fireflies of rain
And chased their wings
Like a child at play.
Like that girl untouched
Of pain or vice.
I, like a fool, watched.
And relived my faded childhood.
Through you.
You danced.
Was it only yesterday?
When unawares you wept out loud.
For the kitten was hurt,
Or the urchins were poor
Or that ‘people just die’.
My emotions too confused,
My responses delayed,
Waited for waves to settle
In your tremulous heart.
I only breathed.
And somewhere deep within me
Something moved
In the blissful knowledge that
You are to be treasured.
For life.
If not by me.
Someone else.
For sure.
The sunset makes me feel silly.
As I take the long walk home
I see people huddle in the rain.
You loved getting drenched, I remember.
And every time the deluge,
In its joyous rhythm
Obliged.
In setting you free.
By letting life play around you
As you danced to the thunder.
I stood at some corner watching.
Miffed and amused.
I knew it would be soon,
Time for a kiss.
And then ‘Goodbye’.
The unclasping of fingers
And pearls of longing
Gracing you eyes,
Slipping down your cheeks
In their cruel climb.
I smiled like irony.
That made me live
My entire lifetime.
Was it only yesterday ?